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In this post, I'm writing something random, but it's deeply from my heart. Why? coz' it's my blog, and I just feel like doing this :D
I think it's very special for me to have this dream when I was young, a movie director. I seriously wanted to be one, eventhough I knew it was tough. But kids will still be kids, what they like are all it matters. I wanted to direct people how to act, watch them play their own characters and don't mind getting tired. I also interested in writing the movie line, basically it was because I love making stories, like some weird and no ending stories. I swear I didn't know what job does a director really need to do, I thought they do the storyline, acting, directing, editing.. lol, more like one man show.
Seriously, you judge. A kid at that age would think that far (though it's not exactly right), not a dumb kid right? got brain right? I always thought that too. I called myself a smart kid.
Till I thought I was overrating myself, my thinking turned very stupid. That's when I was form 3, if you know me, I had been a miserable in high school. So yeah, books were all grossed to me and I thought nothing about future (form 3 time). Wait, I did. But a very stupid one. I thought, why do I have to do all these things for living? I just need a job and money to fill my tummy. Life goes on. So I thought, I would just get some EASY job to live in future. Like, working as promoter or something?
I'm not sure who influenced me to have that kind of thinking. My best friend was William and I know he wasn't that lifeless. I was the lifeless one who had that kind of lifeless thoughts, luckily I didn't influence him though. Everyday, every night, I was thinking of, when can I get my freedom? When can I get to go out everyday?
Lifeless.
All those stopped.. When I got this girl as my girlfriend. Yen Nee. LOL. I'm not missing her but.. this girl really changed me alot. As in, ALOT. Let me tell you slowly..
When we were still a pair, we always talk about our future (normally we talk alot about how are we getting our kids WTF ok SKIP.) She bulbed me up by saying this, you're gonna bring me and our kids to holiday atleast 2 times a year, sleep tightly every night, good ride on your yellow car..
THEN ONLY I THOUGHT. If I work as a promoter or something, how the hell can I afford a wife and kids and houses and a yellow car? Ridiculously I realized my thinking was wrong.
Throughout ourpuppy love relationship, I've learned how to read a girl's mind xD which is good and it takes long time. Also, when's the time to be selfish and not to be selfish. She pretty much made me change another road for my future. After we broke up, I fully knew ''don't judge a book by it's cover'' 's definition. Thanks.
I also knew that relationship is like puzzle, a jigsaw puzzle. You can't loss even 1 piece, because, relationship between two must be perfect. Me and her was like only completed half of the puzzle.
Till now, I know what I want and what I'm doing. Still resting from relationship though, 've had enough of nightmares thinking of the lover roaring. lol.
Ahh. How cool if things are as easy as this? (:
Just jump, then fall. Into me, into me (:
*deep breath* Taylor Swift is amazing. (:
In this post, I'm writing something random, but it's deeply from my heart. Why? coz' it's my blog, and I just feel like doing this :D
I think it's very special for me to have this dream when I was young, a movie director. I seriously wanted to be one, eventhough I knew it was tough. But kids will still be kids, what they like are all it matters. I wanted to direct people how to act, watch them play their own characters and don't mind getting tired. I also interested in writing the movie line, basically it was because I love making stories, like some weird and no ending stories. I swear I didn't know what job does a director really need to do, I thought they do the storyline, acting, directing, editing.. lol, more like one man show.
Seriously, you judge. A kid at that age would think that far (though it's not exactly right), not a dumb kid right? got brain right? I always thought that too. I called myself a smart kid.
Till I thought I was overrating myself, my thinking turned very stupid. That's when I was form 3, if you know me, I had been a miserable in high school. So yeah, books were all grossed to me and I thought nothing about future (form 3 time). Wait, I did. But a very stupid one. I thought, why do I have to do all these things for living? I just need a job and money to fill my tummy. Life goes on. So I thought, I would just get some EASY job to live in future. Like, working as promoter or something?
I'm not sure who influenced me to have that kind of thinking. My best friend was William and I know he wasn't that lifeless. I was the lifeless one who had that kind of lifeless thoughts, luckily I didn't influence him though. Everyday, every night, I was thinking of, when can I get my freedom? When can I get to go out everyday?
Lifeless.
All those stopped.. When I got this girl as my girlfriend. Yen Nee. LOL. I'm not missing her but.. this girl really changed me alot. As in, ALOT. Let me tell you slowly..
When we were still a pair, we always talk about our future (normally we talk alot about how are we getting our kids WTF ok SKIP.) She bulbed me up by saying this, you're gonna bring me and our kids to holiday atleast 2 times a year, sleep tightly every night, good ride on your yellow car..
THEN ONLY I THOUGHT. If I work as a promoter or something, how the hell can I afford a wife and kids and houses and a yellow car? Ridiculously I realized my thinking was wrong.
Throughout our
I also knew that relationship is like puzzle, a jigsaw puzzle. You can't loss even 1 piece, because, relationship between two must be perfect. Me and her was like only completed half of the puzzle.
Till now, I know what I want and what I'm doing. Still resting from relationship though, 've had enough of nightmares thinking of the lover roaring. lol.
Ahh. How cool if things are as easy as this? (:
Just jump, then fall. Into me, into me (:
*deep breath* Taylor Swift is amazing. (:
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