I love Lady Gaga's new song! Not Bad Romance,
I'm talking about Monster.
It's damn addictive when it comes to this part
he ate my heart
he ate my heart
he ate my heart
& the beginning part, she says
don't call me gaga..
lol. Damn cool.
haha. Have to admit that she's very talented. Though she always changes her style, from weird to weird, that's pretty weird, and actually very weird. I still prefer the old Gaga.
I kinda like her bow-hair :D looks cute.
Damn, why am I talking about Gaga? so weird right. I mean YES she's weird but for me to talk about her suddenly is even weirder. Hmm. Smart la you, you know I got alot to say but I just don't feel like typing. Wait, I feel like typing, just that I don't feel like letting so many people know about my problems.
[edit]
Alright I'll just type.. something.
Gaga stuff above so maybe no one notices this part =X
Ok I'm weird I know. Maybe too much Gaga songs recently lol.
I call myself a very tough person. Tough in controlling my inside feeling, such as sadness, disappointment, regret-ness, emo-ness and bla bla. No one can ever let me down for long time. And I don't need other people to cheer me up. Coz I always find the right glue before someone breaks my heart. Yes, I'm that tough motherfucker (Peter Chao inside joke)
Last week was the worst week ever. I never felt that pain before in this few years. Well, basically if it didn't happen, you would see me posting pictures with a girl in my arm saying ''I finally found my one and only'' -.- okay I wouldn't do that la but I guess now you know what I mean.
So it was epic fail to get my ''one & only". Long story though. It's okay, I'm fully recovered now, no more pain. The good thing is, I'm still contacting her, as in everyday? instantly? We are still friends. Thought I could expand our relationship though, but sadly or I can say luckily, we are still friends.
That's nothing wrong. I mean, that sounds so great right? Not couple but still friends.
Every night I go under my pillow and I think,
why don't you just dump me and stop talking to me?
Reason is, everytime I talk to you, I can't treat you like I just knew you.
That's so fucking cruel okay?
Enough of being no way to go.
Alright, another person made me angry too. That was typical but it was my first time. I say it loud here, I helped you out alot, I concern about you alot. I stayed up late for nights to help you do some research. I could use it all for my own business but I really thought you were my friend so I decided to give my hardworks to you. I had been a very good friend to you until I ACCIDENTALLY heard wrongly what you said and couldn't make it for your sis's birthday. Hate me for life then? Are you dumb or what? I don't think I should treat you as my friend anymore since you don't. I've apologized to you for my one & only mistake, so I think I'm doing all right.
That is ANOTHER person bothering me too, like, come one, I wanted to test whether you care about what I care for you ornot, sadly you didn't care. You didn't take mine seriously. That was actually very shocking. I was really really amazed & surprised. I wasn't suppose to be angry, I know. But yeah, just forget about it. Don't ever apologize to me anymore and don't even talk about that anymore. That is just like adding oil into the burning fire. I just want all the fire to get lost.
I've always been a liar. But I tell all of you, my lies don't hurt. I lie for fun and lie for good.
I always hope that people will trust me eventhough I don't trust anyone already.
Overall, I'm making myself to feel depress with some assist from some people.
I'm talking about Monster.
It's damn addictive when it comes to this part
he ate my heart
he ate my heart
he ate my heart
& the beginning part, she says
don't call me gaga..
lol. Damn cool.
haha. Have to admit that she's very talented. Though she always changes her style, from weird to weird, that's pretty weird, and actually very weird. I still prefer the old Gaga.
I kinda like her bow-hair :D looks cute.
Damn, why am I talking about Gaga? so weird right. I mean YES she's weird but for me to talk about her suddenly is even weirder. Hmm. Smart la you, you know I got alot to say but I just don't feel like typing. Wait, I feel like typing, just that I don't feel like letting so many people know about my problems.
[edit]
Alright I'll just type.. something.
Gaga stuff above so maybe no one notices this part =X
Ok I'm weird I know. Maybe too much Gaga songs recently lol.
I call myself a very tough person. Tough in controlling my inside feeling, such as sadness, disappointment, regret-ness, emo-ness and bla bla. No one can ever let me down for long time. And I don't need other people to cheer me up. Coz I always find the right glue before someone breaks my heart. Yes, I'm that tough motherfucker (Peter Chao inside joke)
Last week was the worst week ever. I never felt that pain before in this few years. Well, basically if it didn't happen, you would see me posting pictures with a girl in my arm saying ''I finally found my one and only'' -.- okay I wouldn't do that la but I guess now you know what I mean.
So it was epic fail to get my ''one & only". Long story though. It's okay, I'm fully recovered now, no more pain. The good thing is, I'm still contacting her, as in everyday? instantly? We are still friends. Thought I could expand our relationship though, but sadly or I can say luckily, we are still friends.
That's nothing wrong. I mean, that sounds so great right? Not couple but still friends.
Every night I go under my pillow and I think,
why don't you just dump me and stop talking to me?
Reason is, everytime I talk to you, I can't treat you like I just knew you.
That's so fucking cruel okay?
Enough of being no way to go.
Alright, another person made me angry too. That was typical but it was my first time. I say it loud here, I helped you out alot, I concern about you alot. I stayed up late for nights to help you do some research. I could use it all for my own business but I really thought you were my friend so I decided to give my hardworks to you. I had been a very good friend to you until I ACCIDENTALLY heard wrongly what you said and couldn't make it for your sis's birthday. Hate me for life then? Are you dumb or what? I don't think I should treat you as my friend anymore since you don't. I've apologized to you for my one & only mistake, so I think I'm doing all right.
That is ANOTHER person bothering me too, like, come one, I wanted to test whether you care about what I care for you ornot, sadly you didn't care. You didn't take mine seriously. That was actually very shocking. I was really really amazed & surprised. I wasn't suppose to be angry, I know. But yeah, just forget about it. Don't ever apologize to me anymore and don't even talk about that anymore. That is just like adding oil into the burning fire. I just want all the fire to get lost.
I've always been a liar. But I tell all of you, my lies don't hurt. I lie for fun and lie for good.
I always hope that people will trust me eventhough I don't trust anyone already.
Overall, I'm making myself to feel depress with some assist from some people.
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